so i've been thinking that a really funny post about how i've clearly hit rock bottom--i'm sick, and have been so pathetic that i've been eating pogos (corndogs) and watching jersey shore ( :( ) and screwing up mister man's stupid koolhaas hat AGAIN, and how i'm clearly pathetic.

and then i woke up this morning thinking about a darling friend of mine, and felt that it must mean that she was gone. and she is. not unexpectedly gone, but really, finally gone. and although i'm still sick and pathetic, i'm also sad, and feel stupid about feeling so sorry for myself. because her new little family has such a gaping hole, as to all the rest of us. sigh.